Dear Ritje, Lovely to hear from you, thank you for your continued commitment to sharing Jiepie's experience. It does make a difference and we all hope for the breakthrough in understanding. Good to know you have good memories of a normal day. We hear many people speak of the suddenness of death, although they know the end is coming it can happen in a blink and catch loved ones by surprise. Take care, it is early days in coping with such a huge loss and change in your life. Hope that you have good friends and family to help you through a sad time, Best wishes, Emma