JiePie, It’s been 49 1/2 long lonely weeks. I am not doing well. I miss you so much my head hurts and I feel sick. I just want you here, back home. I want to cuddle you and keep you warm. Last year you were so happy that you were still here with my 60th Birthday. You knew that the end was coming but I still, can't cope with it. I know I will get thru this in time because that’s what EVERYONE tells me… but I wasn't thinking that time was going to bring more tears and sickness.. I push me to go on because that’s what I am supposed to do, right?? Being at home and feeling sorry for me isn’t going to get me anywhere, but I swear it's all I want to do... I just wish there were a phone in heaven...JiePie help me... I will always love you, Your Ritje