33 years together, but today, it 's our 20th wedding anniversary. The Christmas tree have been placed like usual, still place to pass with your wheelchair if you are able to pass bye. It is becoming really hard now without you, my lovely JiePie. I miss you so much and wish you were here so I could cuddle you and tell you once more that I love you. You were and are my life and my best friend. I am trying to get on the best I can but sometimes it’s hard and than I do silly things which I then regret. It’s a circle which goes round and round. I just want you to be here with me right now. Thinking of you on our very special day today, I still hope that I can care and looking after you again soon. JiePie, I love you and can’t wait to see you again, my heart is broken. Your Ritje,